Running the Marathon

I’ve never been a distance runner.  I’ve always been a sprinter, and not a great one at that.  My body is not built to run, and so I’ve never really gotten into that sport.  I’m built for leverage, and for power.  Unfortunately, all of my training has been for short battles after which I could collapse and recuperate.  Wrestling takes a lot of conditioning, but certainly not the kind that I need for my current battle.

My therapist has commented that when one is running a marathon, and trips, one does not start at the beginning, but simply stands up, and continues to run.  This last weekend, I tripped.  I was then trampled by the other runners in the race.  I was left bloodied and broken on the pavement, wishing that I had never even registered for the race, much less shown up and started running.

The one I loved

Sometimes truth comes from an unlikely source.  Today, it’s from Karl Marx.  I disagree with his political philosophy, but he did say something that mirrors my feelings on friendships.  Where he refers to his son, insert friendship instead.

“Bacon said that really important people have so many relationships with nature and so many interesting possessions that any loss is quickly forgotten.  I do not belong to these people, the death of my son shattered my heart and brain, and I feel the loss as freshly as the first day.” – Karl Marx

While this may seem a bit melodramatic, it is.

An Odd Connection

I’d like to say I’ve always looked for something more than sex, but that would be a lie. That being said, I always preferred chatting with men to simply watching porn. I would go online to find men that I found attractive, and chat with them. Sometimes I would just want to chat, sometimes I would want to have cyber-sex.

I don’t really remember which I was looking for on this occasion.

What is Homosexuality

I come from one field that is very interested in the meaning of words, both where they came from and where they are going.  I am now in a field that is very concerned with understanding how people think about things so we can use that to our advantage.  Because of my background, and my analytical nature, I tend to analyze things, a lot.  I am not alone in this.  There are whole professions who do nothing but analyze.  From soil science to marketing intelligence, everyone wants to understand exactly what it is we’re all talking about.

Thing is, no one ever wants to have a conversation about homosexuality.