Things are only impossible until they’re not

For years, I have heard people tell me that I was fighting a losing battle.  I was told that I was gay, and that there was nothing I could do but accept that fact.  I was told that homosexuality was an immutable characteristic, and that to even attempt to change my sexuality would do nothing but cause psychological harm.  I never believed any of it.

Unique

To be unique is often a characteristic we strive to have.  We don’t want to be the same as everyone else.  In spite of our need to be connected to other human beings, we want to be our own person.  And yet being unique can also be a plague.  Loneliness can be crippling.  The confluence of success and uniqueness makes us believe that our uniqueness is a wonderful thing, but when we are unique and are not sucessful, we only feel alone.

I am a unique individual.

Forgiveness

A little while ago, I got back in touch with someone I lived with on my mission.  He and I hadn’t talked since he left the morning he went home, and I got transferred to my next city.  I don’t know that it was on purpose that we hadn’t spoken in years, but if it were, I certainly would not have blamed him.

An Odd Connection

I’d like to say I’ve always looked for something more than sex, but that would be a lie. That being said, I always preferred chatting with men to simply watching porn. I would go online to find men that I found attractive, and chat with them. Sometimes I would just want to chat, sometimes I would want to have cyber-sex.

I don’t really remember which I was looking for on this occasion.

Origins

I’m not entirely sure that the origin of homosexuality is that important.  I find that obsession about the cause of something is often cloaked in the idea that in order to solve a problem you have to understand how it came to be.  In some cases, it is important to understand the origin of something to effectively deal with it.  In the case of homosexual desire, I don’t think this is the case.